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The Accident of Design
Posted by N Pepperell, 11:31am 20/08/2008
Coffee, Overheard, Procrastination

impromptu light fixtures attached to the ceilingSo for the past few weeks, when I’ve been able to fight the crowds to get to my usual spot in my coffee shop (as I type this, one of my postgrad students has walked past and casually asked, “Oh! So is this your office?” I’m getting emails from people I don’t even know, asking whether I’m in my “office”, where the emailer clearly means this place… The regular use of this term for this place has to come from students talking to one another, since I don’t advertise it - er… other than writing about it to the entire net, of course… But no one gets their information from the internet, do they?), my view as I look upward is something like this.

I’m taking these photos on the webcam built in to my laptop, which is not what one would normally call a high resolution device… So, in case it’s impossible to tell what this is a picture of, the photo is meant to show the padded tiles along the walls (yes, folks, I voluntarily place myself in a padded room on a regular basis), looking up toward the purple ceiling. You can see the previously-blogged ceiling power point - the white cord dangling down is the extension I’ve donated to the place, so I can plug in my laptop without scaling the furniture. For some weeks, my extension cord was the only thing regularly suspended from that power point. But recently there have been a couple of additions - the two light fixtures (presently turned off) that have been plugged into the power point, and then clipped with random office supplies to the beam that runs across the ceiling.

garden of eden muralThis gives my regular table a veritable wealth of light sources (all the others have one at most) - the fruits, I suppose, of sitting under a power point. But who am I to argue. I’m used to the interior of this place changing quite often, as the owner stumbles across new objects from which he creates found art. There are some fixtures, such as the Garden of Eden mural next to where I normally sit, which are constants.

But most of these bits and pieces on the ceiling, for example, are new. I’ll just walk in one morning and find - as shown in this photo - that someone has strung a flag, or hung up lots of clear plastic streamers with glistening foil fish taped to them, or found a convenient spot to prop a pair of stray blue legs…

objects dangling from the ceiling

In context, the fact that my table suddenly sprouted two new light fixtures in addition to the one it’s always had… not really that strange…

So I didn’t ask.

This morning, though, the owner wandered over personally with my coffee. His eyes followed the line from my laptop, to the extension board, up the way to the ceiling power point, and then, leaping back - “WTF?! Where did those lights come from?!”

“I thought you put them up,” I said, startled.

“No - no - not mine,” he stepped back to appraise them from different angles. “I like though… I like… They’re very nice…”

And off he wandered, looking pleased.

Now I’m finding myself reappraising the interior: how much of this place, exactly, has he deliberately created? I’ve seen him do some of it - I had assumed it was all his… Now I’m wondering… How much of the regular, ongoing transformation of this place comes from people like me - people who decide to make… just a little change… add just that little bit… to feel more at home… A cord… a light fixture… a pair of blue legs tucked in the corner just so… Maybe even a mural of mutual temptation… Found objects… donated ones… deliberate designs… detritus… How much of this place did the owner discover one morning, to his surprise, and then accept with a pleased “I like… They’re very nice…”

Moving In
Posted by N Pepperell, 9:43am 03/07/2008
Coffee, Overheard

I often work on my laptop in the coffee shop.

Weekend Relations
Posted by N Pepperell, 10:49am 29/06/2008
Coffee, Overheard, Procrastination

My coffee shop has recently begun opening on weekends.

Concentration
Posted by N Pepperell, 11:01am 19/11/2007
Coffee, Writing

head in handsThe other day, I received an out-of-the-blue apology from a friend. This deeply confused me, as I had no idea what had given them the impression they needed to apologise. I eventually worked out that they had passed by me on the street, said something to me, and I had walked past without acknowledging them - and that they had interpreted this as a deliberate act, and then tried to work out what they might have done, to cause me to treat them so badly.

This morning, I have had three separate people finally manage to attract my attention while I was working in a coffee shop. Two were able to do so only by grabbing my shoulder and shaking me. The third had to tolerate my staring at them blankly for several seconds while I tried to remember who they were (which, in context, was quite a ridiculous thing for me to need to do).

The moral of these little anecdotes is: I am spending an enormous amount of my time at the moment in another world entirely. My body may in fact be wandering aimlessly down the street, or enjoying a cup of coffee, or doing whatever it is that bodies do when their Cartesian counterpart has drifted away, but I am, unfortunately, utterly and completely oblivious to pretty much everything going on around me at the moment because, whether or not I physically look like I am writing or revising, I am writing or revising. I might look like I’m staring directly at you on the street, but all that I am actually seeing are awkward turns of phrase that I want to correct. I might appear to be smiling at you in a coffee shop, but what I am actually doing is grimacing at painful holes in my own logic… At the moment, my gaze is directed almost entirely inwardly, and I am much more than oblivious to whatever else is going on around…

At some point - hopefully soon - some of this writing will start spilling out here again. The kind of writing I am doing at the moment, involves a lot of recasting of earlier sections as later ones fall into form. Since much of what I’m recasting has already gone up on the blog in various forms, it seems at best impolite to inflict very rough interim redrafts on readers here. So I’ll wait until I have something like a complete rough redraft, and then toss the whole thing up for feedback prior to the next round of revision.

Back to oblivion now…

Delicacies
Posted by N Pepperell, 3:02pm 02/10/2007
Coffee, Overheard

I’ve blogged before about my fondness for my favourite coffee shop - and about how, at times, my affection for this place causes me to forget that some elements of the environment might be slightly… confronting for certain visitors. I’ve ended up several times offering to meet people here, only to realise as they were arriving that it’s not a foregone conclusion that everyone will appreciate the… ambiance…

I just overheard someone having a similar experience: meeting a professional contact, who dealt with the outer chambers of the coffee shop just fine - but who then asked directions to the toilet. There was a long pause. You could almost hear cogs turning - should I maybe tell them it’s broken? that they don’t have one? And then, finally, the decision: “Well… Maybe I better take you. It’s just through here and - before we walk back here, I should warn you: see, you walk through here and you see people doing completely terrible things to one another…”

I personally tend to opt for just pointing the person on their way, leaving them to deal with the murals on their own terms. Mainly because I can’t really see that tagging along and sharing my own personal commentary on the murals, will really improve someone’s reaction, if they’re inclined to be offended…

And speaking of delicate sensibilities: I’ve been having a delightfully over-subtle exchange with the organiser of a conference about accommodation arrangements. I’ll be jointly presenting a paper with someone of the opposite sex, and they seem unsure whether this intellectual collaboration might be more than collegial, and whether this should then have some impact on how we’re both housed for the conference. What’s funny about this line of questioning is that, to be honest, I’d just as soon room with my co-presenter - I want to know that, in the evenings, I can just hole up and read, secure that my roommate knows that I’m like this, and won’t regard my behaviour as unduly anti-social… It had never occurred to me that this arrangement might be misinterpreted.

Coffee Blogging
Posted by N Pepperell, 11:47am 21/03/2007
Coffee, Procrastination

I think my affection for my coffee shop has long since reached the level where I should just create a “coffee blogging” category and have done with it. I can’t imagine anyone actually wanting to read the things I write on this place - like the time that I spend here, the entries I write about the experience are personal indulgences. Below the fold, then, before I bore everyone visiting the site…

Surfaces
Posted by N Pepperell, 12:19pm 09/03/2007
Coffee, Overheard, Procrastination

My coffeeshop has been going through a remodelling process over the past several months - a process we have occasionally had reason to suspect was orchestrated to make a lot of noise, so as to move us along, when we monopolise a table longer than our collective coffee rent justifies.

Aside from more structural changes, the remodel has also involved the addition of new furniture, including today’s novelty: a large “communal” table created out of a metal ladder, suspended between what look like those small metallic barriers occasionally used by street cafes to create a boundary around their outdoor tables. The rungs of the ladder are capped for the moment by ill-fitting metal plates salvaged from fire-escape-style staircases, but will eventually be covered by deliberately mismatched wooden planks. All pieces of the table - like the rest of the furniture and artwork in this place - have been created from materials salvaged and recycled from other places: the owner steadily collects, gathering materials into storage until he can visualise something that can be made from them. He also weaves people into his creations: the welding was done by a regular customer who happened to overhear the owner wonder who he should get to do that work. I’ve heard this kind of thing happen before here - been drawn into it myself, on occasion.

Because the owner deliberately mixes materials and styles, new creations tend to cause cascading transformations of the entire environment, as their idiosyncratic mix of stuff contrasts too starkly, or blends in too well, inspiring or irritating the owner to transform the space until things settle into a new dynamic tension. The interior of this space is thus in a constant state of transformation, occasionally interrupted by breathing periods of stasis.

The auditory environment is similarly bricoleured. There are times when I will swear the owner deliberately introduces profoundly irritating musical tracks just for the almost expressionist experience of relief it provides when the track has ended - it’s a thing of wonder and beauty, a genuinely novel way of experiencing a mundane and generally dull piece of music, when for the first time you hear it out of context, following something truly awful. Occasionally, I’ve been here when this kind of experiment doesn’t work as intended - when I’ve paused in my reading or writing in a kind of open admiration for how truly abysmal some cover or mix happens to be, only to have the music stop in mid-note and be exchanged for something else: at that point, I’ll know the owner agreed, and that the moment of transcendence I was waiting for - wondering to myself: what can possibly follow and complete this? - will never come.

This morning, though, it was the new table that was the centre of attention. I loved it on sight. I said as much to a member of the waitstaff, who at first smiled indulgently, and then realised I might be serious. They couldn’t contain their surprise: “You do?!” I think it’s wonderful, I repeated. They laughed nervously - I think they were convinced I was teasing them. You don’t agree? I wanted to know. More nervous laughter as they scuttled back to the kitchen.

The staff, apparently, are divided on the issue. The budding opera singer looked at the table with frank admiration. The owner gazes on it with no small mixture of externalised exhibitionism. The most senior staff member doesn’t see the table, only the owner’s tactile enjoyment of it, and that is enough.

Customers are divided as well. Everyone who ducks in for a coffee, even if they don’t normally investigate those nether realms of the establishment where the table resides, must come have a look. Again nervous laughs. Some customers clearly don’t believe this table will stay - it can’t be serious, this table. I mean, just look at it. A few offer suggestions for turning it into a more conventional eating surface: “Why don’t you just, I don’t know, cover it with a big plank of wood?” - “Oh I’ll cover it with several planks,” replies the owner, “but they have to be different colours, you see - they have to have different grains”. Some, too polite, reach for neutral words: “That’ll seat twelve people for sure”, one man offers. Others, more bluntly: “What happened to that medieval table thing you used to have here? I liked that.” The owner points to the fragments of what used to be one large tree-trunk table - now scattered against several pillars throughout the room, multiple tables now. He doesn’t explain that this multiplicity can also coalesce: if you hang around here long enough, you’ll occasionally see the fragments dragged back together into a plausible imitation of their former cohesive self.

Sense of Disentitlement
Posted by N Pepperell, 10:55am 15/02/2007
Coffee, Overheard

So I’m working in “my” coffeeshop, and someone who knows me wandered by to comment on how comfortable I seem to be. What interested me in the exchange is that it seemed really to appeal to them, the concept of working in a coffee shop - they talked in more and more glowing terms, and then finally built up to saying, “I’m really envious of you, for being able to work here - it’s so… so… it’s lovely!”

Now, I know I work in this spot often enough that it might seem like I own the booth, but in reality I am of course no different from anyone else who drifts in for a cup of coffee - anyone could do exactly what I’m doing, particularly if they’re already buying coffee here in the first place, so the “coffee rent” I pay for my diasporic office is clearly not a prohibitive barrier.

So I’m having a bemused reaction to this exchange: if they like the environment, wish they could work here, and are expressing envy - why not just… work here? What’s stopping them? Now I’m going to spend all day wishing I had asked…

Sensual Uncertainty
Posted by N Pepperell, 3:37pm 15/01/2007
Coffee, Overheard, Reading Group

I owe a response to LMagee’s brave foray into Hegel’s discussion of lordship and bondage. I’m also scheduled to write something of my own, purportedly on the form of Hegel’s argument (which may, as we all know, also require a few observations on the content… ;-P). I will try to get a reply together later today, hopefully soon to be followed by my own post. I had intended to work on both pieces earlier this morning, but was foiled in my attempts, for reasons, I must admit, that are making me reassess what had seemed, at the time, an innocent enough decision to relocate the reading group discussion to “my” coffee shop over the summer.

Admittedly, our regular reading group haunt is closed for the holiday, and so we need somewhere else to meet. And admittedly, I spend most mornings reading and writing quite peacefully and productively in my favourite coffee shop. The introduction of Hegel into this venue, however, has changed all of this. First, there was the unfathomable a capella musical performance that burst out during our discussion last week - completely unprecedented: I have no idea what possessed the wait staff.

And today!

I had arrived early, thinking to write my response to LM’s blog entry before our discussion began. I sat at “my” booth - which is situated in a dim corner at the back of the establishment. Almost at the back. There is only a small half-booth behind where I usually sit - unlit, too small for more than one person to sit comfortably, and without a good surface for perching cups or books. Occasionally, I’ve known staff members to sneak into the dark booth for a nap, but I’ve never known anyone actually to sit there. Until today.

Today, though, I was reading Hegel in the coffeeshop, and that obviously changes everything. A very affectionate couple decided that a small, dark, cushioned spot was exactly what they needed, and so in they tunnelled. As I tried to solider on with my reading, there were various affectionate noises, punctuated unaccountably by outbursts of “Don’t push me, asshole!” and then, a few minutes later, “No! I don’t want to look at you!”. Then things settled down again, and there were more affectionate noises. Perhaps what followed next would have occurred in any event, but it is certainly the case that the establishment’s unaccountable decision to play “You Make Me Feel Like a Natural Woman” coincided with the couple’s noises escalating quite suddenly into realms well beyond my comfort zone, and I decided the better part of discretion, if certainly not valour, required my rapid flight to the front of the coffeeshop…

I eventually decided it was safe to return to my booth. LM arrived soon after, and I promised that, while I could not explain at the time, I would provide an account on the blog for why I haven’t yet written anything on bondage…

In the Groove
Posted by N Pepperell, 11:04am 04/12/2006
Coffee, Overheard, Writing

I’ve come back from sick leave to a day filled with meetings, so substantive responses and posts will have to wait until a calmer moment. But I have to pass along a priceless comment from an impromptu meeting with a friend and fellow PhD student - someone who apparently must share similar tastes in coffee shops, and require a similar caffeine dosage, as it’s just becoming embarassing how often we run into one another in different coffee shops at random times of day.

We were discussing, among other things, a topic I’ve written on here previously - the ways in which you repeatedly find and lose your “question” in the course of ethnographic research, and the cyclical, stop-start nature of PhD research and writing. My friend put forward their philosophy for conceptualising the… slower moments in the PhD process:

My position is, I’m not in a rut, I’m in a giant groove